Here is just a sampling of some of the random thoughts that run through my mind:
- I was in New Orleans last year and visited a voodoo shop. Of course I bought the fertility voodoo doll. Now I can't find it and I don't even have a memory of packing it and bringing it home with me. So, of course, I am now worried about what kind of bad luck comes from losing a voodoo doll.
- I really, really want this adorable Tigger onsie from Disneyland. I see it there every time I go. But I won't buy it unless I am pregnant. Solidly, visibly, past all danger pregnant. I am afraid I'll jinx it. Like buying baby clothes now would be just a little too confident and the universe might want to knock me down a little.
- SH likes to buy lottery tickets. He realizes it's a long shot but says you can't win if you don't play. My worry is that we WILL win and all our luck will be used up. And we need all of our luck for our next IVF. As a couple, we really seem to have a very limited supply of good luck these days and we can't spare any on the lottery. Only I could twist winning the lottery into a bad thing.