We started TTC in October of 2008 - about 6 months after we got married. Obviously, we never anticipated having any problems. It took me a long time to admit we were dealing with infertility and might need some help. SH and I both have jobs that sometimes require us to work out of town for months at a time. In the early days of TTC, I convinced myself we just weren't timing it right. All we needed was to be in the same city for a few months and we would be pregnant in no time. I ovulate every month and my cycles are really regular. I charted for a little while, then moved on to OPK's and it just wasn't happening. I tried supplements and fertility yoga dvd's and it still wasn't happening. I laid in bed with my hips raised for an hour after having sex and it still wasn't happening.
I was terrified of going to see an RE. Terrified. I didn't want to hear that we had an un-fixable problem and wouldn't be able to have children so I decided to live in blissful ignorance for nearly 2 years. As long as I didn't know what the problem was, there was still hope every month. About a year and a half into TTC, I started seeing an acupuncturist who specializes in infertility. She is the one who finally convinced me to see an RE. She even gave me recommendations for RE's she works with.
We went to see RE #1 and did all the testing. Aside from some uterine polyps that I needed to have removed, she said I was fine. The SA was not so fine, however. Low motility and low morphology. RE #1 said if SH's numbers didn't improve with a 2nd test then IVF was our only chance of getting pregnant. Well, we were not prepared for IVF. Couldn't we ease into fertility treatment? SH did not like that she didn't give us any other options. Also, SH had been working 6 days a week, 14 hour days and eating like crap for about 6 months so we figured he just needed to get healthy. We put off any sort of fertility treatment and doctors for months to see if we could improve his sperm with healthier living.
After a 6 month break due to me working out of the country and another 9 months or so of trying on our own without any success, we decided it was time to head back to the RE. We decided to go to a different RE and get a 2nd opinion this time. The results we basically the same. Healthy living had not made SH's sperm any better and I had more polyps that needed to be removed. Only this time I was told I have Diminished Ovarian Reserve. Fantastic. Now I get to have the feeling that every egg I drop is my last good egg. I am 38 so I already feel the clock ticking. This did not help.
We jumped into IVF immediately. It was terrifying. Did I mention I have a TERRIBLE needle phobia? I passed out when I got my ears pierced. This was my worst nightmare. Thankfully SH had worked as an EMT back in college and had no problems doing the injections for me. In fact, he was better at doing the injections than the nurse at our clinic. We figured out a system to get me through 8 days of injections without passing out. I have to lie down flat and ice the injection site while he preps everything. I can't even look at the needle. Aside from the first injection the nurse did where I nearly passed out, it wasn't too bad. I definitely got used to the shots but I still have to lie down and I can't imagine ever being able to do them myself, but at least I don't get light-headed anymore.
Little did I know my worst nightmare would get worse. IVF #1 did not work. I was a poor responder and we ended up with one embryo. Not only did I need IVF, but I needed multiple rounds of IVF. Awesome. We took a month off and started IVF #2 right away. During the month off I started taking supplements and chinese herbs that were supposed to help with egg quality and, hopefully, quantity. IVF#2 was better - we had 5 embryos. Unfortunately, it still didn't work and we weren't able to freeze any. So here we are getting ready for IVF #3, hopefully in January. We took about 4 months off this time. Our second failure hit me really hard and I just needed some time. I have continued with the supplements and herbs since they seemed to help. SH even started taking supplements and chinese herbs and is going to acupuncture with me. Hopefully, we'll get some really strong embryos next time. Third times the charm, right??