It's official! IVF #3 is a go!
I had my baseline ultrasound yesterday and I am cyst-free. Unfortunately, I only had 7 follicles. Last month I had a record high of 9 and was hoping they would all stick around. Oh well. 7 is still the most I have started with in any IVF cycle.
After seeing Dr. N, I had to go pick up all the meds. We have a specialty pharmacy in LA so I don't have to order my meds ahead of time. I just pick them up as I need them. It's takes some stress off of me having to micromanage my meds to make sure I don't run out. The best part is that this pharmacy is near UC.LA. We don't go there very often because parking is terrible and hanging out around college kids just makes me feel old. But SH's favorite pizza place is there and there is the most amazing cookie place (delicious cookies that are 35 cents each!). So whenever we need to pick up more meds we treat ourselves to one or the other (sometimes both) since it's the only time we are in that neighborhood. Yesterday we had pizza. When I go for refills I will pick up some cookies.
I started the injections as soon as I got home from the pharmacy. Back to the old routine again. Retrieval is tentatively scheduled for February 9 and transfer is Valentine's Day (if I make it to a 5 day transfer). After so much waiting, it is all starting to happen so fast.
I am feeling strangely numb about the whole thing. I need to find some hope in all of this. We were both excited to start last month and the delay knocked us down a bit and both of us seem to have this feeling of doom hanging over us. SH commented that it felt like we were on a death march as we were walking up to the pharmacy. So we are both going to make an effort to find some positive and hope. He is much better at that than I am. I think I just need to get through my first monitoring appointment and know that I am responding to the drugs and then maybe I can embrace this cycle a little more. I need to allow myself to have hope because, if it fails, it's hurts just as much whether I expect the best or the worst so I might as well spend some time imagining the best.