I am halfway through the 2WW. This first week has gone by surprisingly fast. We'll see how the 2nd week goes. I am doing a pretty good job of ignoring any physical symptoms. I know it's just the progesterone talking. My sore boobs and cramps are not to be taken seriously.
The more I think about it, the more I would prefer this wait to drag on a little longer. I know that probably seems weird, but I am not ready for this to be over. As long as I am in the 2WW there is hope. There is possibility. I think I am expecting this not to work because that's what experience has taught me. Why should this time be any different? So I would like to live in this in-between place where anything is possible for just a little longer. During my last IVF, my plan was to test as soon as I could get away with it. That way if it was negative I could start to deal with it and figure out what to do next. This time I think I will wait as long as possible. I won't test until Sunday, the day before my beta. I want to keep hope and possibility alive as long as possible. Of course, I may feel totally different in a few days. I could wake up Friday morning and in a groggy stupor might just decide I have to know immediately.
Also, I really want to thank all of you for your comments and support throughout this whole thing. All your positive thoughts and hope for me have meant a lot. Really and truly. It's been amazing finding this community of women who get what I am going through. I only wish I had found it sooner!