I had my last monitoring appointment this morning and my eggs are ripe and ready to go. I trigger tonight and retrieval is bright and early Saturday morning. They only measured 5 follicles today so we'll see how many I end up with. I had the tech who doesn't search quite as hard for any that might be hiding. I looked back at my last cycle and at my last monitoring appointment I only had 4 follicles but they got 5 eggs. Hopefully, some are just being camera shy.
I am still feeling pretty emotionally numb and I think, for now, that's ok. I want to avoid being on too much of an emotional roller coaster and this seems to be my way of doing that. My goal for this cycle has been to be more relaxed. Physically, I am able to do that. I am an expert at laying around and relaxing. Mentally is a whole different ball game. I cannot turn my brain off. Or even slow it down. I think that's why I haven't been posting much. My mind has been racing and I can't seem to organize my thoughts and concentrate on one thing. I have been listening to the Circle Bloom IVF meditation program but it hasn't been going so well. Each segment is only about 15 minutes long and I have yet to make it through without my mind totally wandering to something else or falling asleep. Sometimes I'll even rewind and start over and I just can't focus. I'll keep at it, though. Maybe I'll get the hang of it eventually.
In the meantime, I am going to schedule a massage for the time between retrieval and transfer. I have books I can read during the 2WW. I still have a couple movies to see before the Oscars. Distraction is going to be my best friend in the coming weeks.