Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Sad day

My grandfather died today. It wasn't completely unexpected. He has been sick for years and has been in and out of the hospital. Each hospital stay seemed to take a little more out of him. It has been sad to watch him get weaker and so very frail over the last year so I hope he has found some peace.

He was my last living grandparent and I am sad that I will no longer have that.  I know I am extremely lucky to have had my grandparents around for as long as I did. It makes me sad that my kids won't have that because of how long it took me to have them.  There is no doubt they will lose their grandparents at a much younger age.

In what feels like a weird premonition, a few weeks ago SH got a little teary and thought that we should tell my grandfather about the pregnancy. I wasn't planning on telling my extended family until I got through the first trimester (and still haven't told them) but he was really worried that something would happen and my grandfather would never know. I never did anything about it. I figured we only had  few weeks to wait and what could happen in a few weeks. The one member of my extended family I did tell is one of my aunts. When she called me this morning to tell me about my grandfather, she also told me that she told him I am pregnant and he was really excited for us. It might have been when he was admitted to the hospital a few days ago. I'm not really sure. She was also afraid that something would happen and wanted him to know. I am so grateful to her for that. I just wish he would have had a chance to meet his great-grandchildren.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

First OB appointment

I had my first real OB appointment today.  This OB came highly recommended by a friend of ours and so far we really like him. He has a great demeanor and it's a small practice so he will be the one to deliver our babies. We won't just get whoever is on call that day. That was really important to us. The visit wasn't too extensive, I think, because I still have one more appointment with Dr. N before I officially graduate to my OB's care. Mostly just getting some history and answering our questions. He did a quick ultrasound and the babies are doing great and were wiggling around like crazy. He says at this point we are down to only a 5% chance of miscarriage. The ultrasound was actually the thing that made me finally start to feel like a real pregnant lady. It was a belly ultrasound! So long, Wandy!

I got a good laugh when I got up on the exam table. I looked down at the stirrups and saw this:

Before I left, Dr. B asked me about the prenatal vitamins I was taking. I told him I was taking some recommended by my acupuncturist but they were hard to take because it's a packet of 7 pills. He said I didn't need to take that many (especially because of the nausea) and he would give me a few samples of others and I could decide what I liked. Well, this is what I came home with:

That big box in the back is a one month supply. I haven't counted how many are in the other packages, but I think this should last me at least a few months. That's a lot of money I just saved right there! He also suggested I take extra vitamin D as it's supposed to reduce the chances of gestational diabetes, pre eclampsia and pre-term labor. SH actually discovered this little factoid on Dr. Google the other day and has been the vitamin D police ever since.

I came home after the appointment to find a lot of cuteness. The box in the picture below is some maternity clothes my sister-in-law sent me (hopefully the first box of many). I threw the box in our (soon to be former) guest room until I feel ready to try them on. Today my cats decided they should cuddle up and take a nap in it. I think if they knew what those clothes meant, they would probably pee all over the box. They have no idea how much their world is about to change. They thought it was bad when we got a dog!

Tuesday, April 2, 2013


The babies are still growing strong. I had an ultrasound yesterday at 9w2d and both babies were measuring at 9w5d (we finally got specifics).  I was so relieved. Despite still having all my pregnancy symptoms, I started getting really worried the night before that one or both would no longer have a heartbeat and that I was only feeling the symptoms because the extra hormones were still in my body. I'm sure I'll continue to have that fear for the next few weeks, but I am actually starting to feel like this is actually happening.  The reality that I am having twins is really starting to sink in and it's a little terrifying sometimes. But also incredibly exciting.

They did see a blood clot on the ultrasound so I have to continue the PIO shots for the next 2 weeks, but only every other day. It explains the spotting I have had for the past week and a half. Fun, right? Dr. N didn't seem very worried about it and expects it to work itself out. He doesn't want to see me for another 2 weeks and at that point he will graduate me to my OB and hopefully let me stop the progesterone and estrogen. 

My belly is also growing. I haven't been able to button my jeans for about 2 weeks, but I am so not ready (or big enough) to buy maternity clothes. For now, I loop a rubber band through the buttonhole and around the button and it works perfectly. At first, it was just my normal belly pooch but I could no longer suck it in.  Now it is definitely turning into more than my normal pooch. I feel like it is SO obvious, but I am sure to anyone other than me or SH, I just look like I had a big lunch. However, at this rate, I don't think I will make it to 12 weeks without people noticing on their own. We have actually started to tell more people. We are feeling more comfortable about the pregnancy, but also SH reasoned that if anything were to go wrong at this point and we lost the babies we would need all the support we can get. so we might as well tell people.  We aren't sending out any mass email or facebook announcements just yet, just slowly telling people as we see and talk to them.

Last week we met with a genetic counselor to go over all of our options for genetic testing. At first, I thought we would do a CVS test but the more I thought about it, the less I wanted to do it. There is about a 1% chance of miscarriage (although I was sent to an expert here in LA and his rate is about .5%) and after everything we have been through I just can't justify taking that chance. There is also very little they would find that would lead us to terminate. I mostly wanted to do it for peace of mind. Or if something did come back abnormal, it would give us the chance to prepare for it. Instead we decided to just do the various blood tests and the NT scan. That way we can get some information without doing anything invasive. We can also get an idea of the genders with the blood test, though it's trickier with twins. The test will detect the presence of the Y chromosome, so if that comes back negative we know we have 2 girls. If it comes back positive, we won't know if there is 1 boy or 2 until we can see it on an ultrasound. SH is pretty convinced it's 2 girls for some reason.

So, that's my uterus update for now. I promise as soon as I start feeling less nauseous and get back out into the world again, I will try to write about something else.